Thursday, October 22, 2009

College Chronicles: Day 44


The warm aroma of my cafe mocha fills merely a small fraction of the air. The steam seeps up from the paper cup, and its sweet goodness brushes against my nose. Although normally this hot drink would soothe my nerves and deliver that quick jolt of energy to my body this morning, I feel instead my stomach tightening in knots and my nerves shaking. Explanation? First off, an evil, lurking biology test awaits me in approximately five hours and secondly, the gentleman next to me never fails to let out a mildly loud series of chuckles within 4 minute intervals.

Apparently, I'm just as big an idiot as this guy is. My goal today was to take on a biology cram session, however I've voluntarily placed myself in an atmosphere that prevents me from getting where I need to be. I can recall very clearly making A's in all my courses without having to lift a finger. This bad habit has adhered and tainted my work ethic. I have always been recognized by my family, friends, and peers for my intelligence, but this widespread, common disease called procrastination has finally overturned and captured the better of me. It has sucked me up for the vast majority of my high school career and now it's winning this battle as I stand during the midterm of my first semester in college. Yet... I'm still not accepting this reality check. When the hell did I get so damn lazy?

Sunday, October 11, 2009

College Chronicles: Day 35


Thirty-five eventful days of class have passed me by as swiftly as a bullet train in transit. Mother Nature has allowed me a sweet taste of the beautiful transition from the humid summer to the cool autumn weather. Mornings aren't always muggy and they are definitely not frigid, but can be cool enough to allow me to drive my 23 mile commute to school with the windows down.

The events and turns of recent weeks have uprooted change. I have noticed a strong change in my attitude and demeanor; I feel the skepticism from my heart dissipating into a trait more admirable than what I used to heavily associate myself with: cold. I am now beginning to transform into someone more mellow and carefree, not someone so hesitant and withdrawn. However, my aggression and strength have not faltered. My character is much like water- the affect of 'anything' on me is apparent, but push too far, I am no longer placid.

I am so thankful to God for all of the wonderful things he has blessed me with. Salamat sa diyos.